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Gunslinger
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If it wasn't already obvious, my enthusiasm has greatly dwindled. No, evaporated.
I'm sure all of you hate to be left hanging as much as I do, so I'm going to make it as clear cut as I can. Engine swap isn't happening. Not only do I simply not have the time in my life to devote to it, but I have no desire and no patience, a few things I'm in short supply of in general. Current state? Interior is pretty much in the same condition as it were per my last post. A piece or two has been added, but no substantial work worth mentioning let alone photographing and posting.
I have no desire to work on this project anymore. In all honesty, I regret having decided to do this at all. I'm sure I sound as dramatic as a 14yo girl right now, but whatever.
This project, this truck, continually fights me with everything I try to do. Doesn't matter what it is, it's always an order of magnitude more difficult than what it ever should be. I should have seen that right away when I first got the doors and the diff, specifically the tag being lost and the harness having been cut, and this F150 being an absolute b**** to drive, becoming the thing I hate most. Wait, scratch that. The second thing I hate most.
The first thing I hate most, is how I no longer love or even like my Ranger anymore. Funny how that happens when the thing you love ferociously fights you, tooth and nail, every step of the way. Maybe it liked the way I had it in (last) October. I've done so much to this truck, and I don't have far to go before it's 'done', ignoring the doors being the wrong color.
1. Complete D side mirror assembly.
2. Mount D side mirror assembly
3. Replace door panel
4. Replace center console
5. Mount D side + P side seats (jump seats being left out, they never got used anyway)
6, configure mustang brake cables to work with Ranger emergency brake setup.
7. Bring to alignment shop
That's really it. But I don't care anymore. Sad, isn't it? I find it hard to care about something that constantly kicks you in the teeth. But as I write this, I start to wonder if maybe I kind of deserve it; always trying to change it into something it never was and never really would ever be, when all it really wanted was to be accepted for what it was. That is, if you believe cars have souls. I wonder sometimes, because there's been more than a few instances where weird things, explainable by other means things, have occurred.
I still love (most) of the memories this truck has allowed me to make. After all, I can recall several instances where this truck played a key roll in memories I'll look back on the rest of my life. This truck has helped me learn a lot of things in life, either directly or indirectly. Sometimes the truck played a key roll, other times it was just there; or rather the delivery.
It will be put back together within the next few short months though, because I'm getting something new, and it isn't sitting outside.
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1999 Ford Ranger XLT - 3.0 V6 4x4 - Loaded (Totaled) 143k. Rest in Peace, Gold Dust.